Frazer was the most beautiful wee baby I've ever seen...obviously I'm bias as I'm his mum but he had such distinguishing features for such a tiny wee baby. He was born 6lb 2oz & 52cm in length...a decent weight & build. He had the tiniest wee feet I have ever seen, unusually small & unbelievably cute. He had the most gorgeous little mouth, wee pouty lips that you'd never tire of kissing, jet black hair & very sallow skin (I was born exactly the same). I often had people ask me if I wish i'd never fallen pregnant, then I'd never have experienced such unbelievable heart break but the answer to that question is no...I got the opportunity to experience unconditional love when I brought my baby into this world & I'd never wish to change that. I went through all the usual steps of grief, total shock at first, then real anger & then complete devastation when the reality of his death hit me for the first time six months down the line & it hit me hard. Some people don't actually realise that certain things they said to me at the time of his death have remained with me until now...my friend Lindsay phoned to console me & told me she believed my son was too good for this world & God wanted him back- that thought has given me comfort & I believe it to be true.